10/17/11
One week of pure insanity. @ 1:44 PM
I'm laying in bed typing on my phone. I have no idea why I find comfort in this.
I had Alanna for a week by myself. No, it was not what I expected. I thought for once I could feel like a real mom by having her for a long period of time. This.. was the ultimate test on not only my sanity, but what I didn't notice before about her behaviors.
NOTE: I am not a bad mother. And if you think that, you either don't know anything about me, are not a parent, or aren't a single mom. Or you're just a fucking asshole.
Alanna tested the boundaries with me from peeing on the carpet, dumping water all over herself (the good bottled water), waking me up at 3am by turning the lights on jumping on the bed yelling "cookies mom! Cookies!", coloring herself and the sheets with markers, and biting my sister in the thigh. Monster child? Apparently it's her age, but thankfully while she was completely occupied by the movie Rio and chicken nuggets, I called preschool and enrolled her. THANK YOU JESUS!
Tomorrow will be a busy day. I'm exhausted and Alanna went to her dad's because her grandmother is home from vacation.
It's nap time.
10/17/11
One week of pure insanity. @ 1:44 PM
I'm laying in bed typing on my phone. I have no idea why I find comfort in this.
I had Alanna for a week by myself. No, it was not what I expected. I thought for once I could feel like a real mom by having her for a long period of time. This.. was the ultimate test on not only my sanity, but what I didn't notice before about her behaviors.
NOTE: I am not a bad mother. And if you think that, you either don't know anything about me, are not a parent, or aren't a single mom. Or you're just a fucking asshole.
Alanna tested the boundaries with me from peeing on the carpet, dumping water all over herself (the good bottled water), waking me up at 3am by turning the lights on jumping on the bed yelling "cookies mom! Cookies!", coloring herself and the sheets with markers, and biting my sister in the thigh. Monster child? Apparently it's her age, but thankfully while she was completely occupied by the movie Rio and chicken nuggets, I called preschool and enrolled her. THANK YOU JESUS!
Tomorrow will be a busy day. I'm exhausted and Alanna went to her dad's because her grandmother is home from vacation.
It's nap time.
i my me mine.
you think you know me yeah ?
I'm 27, a single mom to a beautiful 3 year old girl, and I'm a college graduate.
I have bipolar depression.
I have many layers of complexity. I am a vast repository of both useful and useless information, which means I can be mysterious as well as great in conversation. I notice the small stuff, both the good and the bad, and always looking at the big picture can become very overwhelming. A day in my mind is like living in a garden where so much is planted that the violets cannot be distinguished from the weeds.
I started this blog as more of an outlet than anything else, but there's so much more I'd like to say, so here goes nothing..
