3/31/12
quick update. @ 7:02 PM
Still no job and it's been almost a year. I feel like giving up.
I need something more. I'm lost. Mentally, I guess. I honestly don't fucking know anymore. It's like my brain is mush from trying to deal with the stress in my life.
Had a slight disagreement tonight where my emotions got the best of me (apparently, it's an interpersonal conflict). It wouldn't be the first time. And I am
REALLY trying to let it not ruin every single friendship/relationship in my life, but of course, bipolar depression, anxiety and pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD - look it up, what a damned nightmare) are all on the same team and it isn't in my favor. Awesome.
I have to go fix yet another bullshit mistake I made because I feel like killing somebody. UGH.
xx
S
3/31/12
quick update. @ 7:02 PM
Still no job and it's been almost a year. I feel like giving up.
I need something more. I'm lost. Mentally, I guess. I honestly don't fucking know anymore. It's like my brain is mush from trying to deal with the stress in my life.
Had a slight disagreement tonight where my emotions got the best of me (apparently, it's an interpersonal conflict). It wouldn't be the first time. And I am
REALLY trying to let it not ruin every single friendship/relationship in my life, but of course, bipolar depression, anxiety and pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD - look it up, what a damned nightmare) are all on the same team and it isn't in my favor. Awesome.
I have to go fix yet another bullshit mistake I made because I feel like killing somebody. UGH.
xx
S
i my me mine.
you think you know me yeah ?
I'm 27, a single mom to a beautiful 3 year old girl, and I'm a college graduate.
I have bipolar depression.
I have many layers of complexity. I am a vast repository of both useful and useless information, which means I can be mysterious as well as great in conversation. I notice the small stuff, both the good and the bad, and always looking at the big picture can become very overwhelming. A day in my mind is like living in a garden where so much is planted that the violets cannot be distinguished from the weeds.
I started this blog as more of an outlet than anything else, but there's so much more I'd like to say, so here goes nothing..
